UGHGHGHGHGHGHGHG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I swear, all of my hard work is in vain!!! Took my measurements today. Not a single flippin' inch. Not even a quarter of an inch!!! I thought I lost in my biceps, but then I realized if I move the tape measure slightly in one direction or the other, it's the original measurement!

I mean, I like working out, probably more than the "average" person, but it still makes me wonder why bother when there is not a "bleepin" thing to show for it! Not losing weight is one thing, but to add this is like adding insult to injury or whatever that dumb saying is. Oh, I could scream!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I keep telling myself ONE OF THESE DAYS my body will settle back down. And then I will have the advantage of being in the habit of working out. Please God, let it be soon!

Still struggling with my WO today. Feel so sluggish, fat, bloated, crampy, you name it. Makes it hard to lug 200+ pounds through the air....

WO:
45 Min step aerobics
8 Min Arms
8 Min Abs

2005 ULTIMATE GOALS

Okay, I am going to make that big so I can easily find it and use it as a reference point throughout the year. I figure page 5 (for 2005) of my gym log will be a whole lot easier to come back to than finding some random page in my journal.

I am probably worse than anyone for wanting a "quick fix" to my weight problem . I think primarily because I was so close to goal before getting pregnant and now I am worse off than ever in my life. I want this weight gone NOW.

However, I know that is not going to happen . To keep myself sane and balanced, I have decided to aim for a minimum of a 1.5 pound loss per week. I am going to make a little "chart" to show where I should be at by the end of each month. At the end of each month, I will come back to this page and note my progress. With a little bitty amount like 1.5 pounds per week (I'll round down even and say 6 pounds per month), there should be no excuse what so ever to not be at my goal by next year. So here goes....
January 212-206
February 206-200
March 200-194
April 194-188
May 188-182
June 182-176
July 176-170
August 170-164
September 164-158
November 158-152
December 152-146
WOW!! Could that work out any closer?!?! My final goal is 145 and at 6#/month, I would be at 146 by next year. And I rounded each month down to 4 weeks instead of 4.5 weeks. Soooooo, therefore, I want to be able to come back to this page monthly, and especially at the start of 2006 and see that I am right at my goal (or under!!!!).

Darn it anyhow!! I couldn't even keep with my "fool proof" plan!! However, I will not let that deter me. I will just up the stakes, and start over. What else can I do!?

Goal for end of February~210*
**Playing it safe, giving myself some leeway....THEN DOWN TO BUSINESS!

GOALS

March ~200
April~192
May~184
June~176
July~168
Aug~160
September~152
October~144

That leaves November and December, the holiday months, to maintain!!!

I have "upped the stakes" so to speak, and increased my expected weight loss to 2# per week instead of 1.5#. I don't think that is the least bit unreasonable...but we will see what my body has to say.

40 min step aerobics
8 min arms, abs

40 min step aerobics
8 min arms 2x
8 min abs 2x

**I know without a doubt, if I hope to see any weight loss, exercise is going to play just as big of a part as carb count....

I am really hoping that I have exercised since my last post and that I just didn't write it in!!!!

Sat and Sun
DA 20 min Step Aerobics