Dear Willbthin,
I came here looking for info on cad, and I read your posts here. I want to totally support you in trying cad for 3 days, but I also want to tell you about some books that might be helpful, and help you figure out just exactly what and how you want to resolve things. I believe very strongly that excess weight is a side effect of other things, and that when we resolve the other things, working on the weight isn't charged will so many emotional factors. I know that has been true for me. My stats reflect my starting weight when I joined this site and started lowcarb, but my high weight was 272, and I am 5'2". So, I have lost more than my stats reflect.
OK, back to the books. If you have a library near you, look for any books you can get hold of by Geneen Roth. She is a fantastic author, especially for women, because she speaks to many of the reasons we gain weight in the first place. I think that her earlier titles are the most helpful - Feeding the Hungry Heart, Breaking Free From Compulsive Eating, Why Weight?, When Food is Love, Appetites. Her latest one is When you Eat at the Refrigerator, Pull up a Chair. It's good too - a little more lighthearted. Geneen's books are really helpful for understanding why we end up overweight. The other author, Laurel Mellin, is a nutritionist, and her book is more about getting it resolved, permanently. I lost over 35 pounds with her book, and it sounds like something you'd benefit from, because it's all about balancing all the food groups. She has developed cycles for emotional, physical and spiritual health. I LOVE this book! It's called The Diet Free Solution, or on older volumes, The Solution.
I hope you don't take this as something preachy. When I read your posts, I could really relate to you, and where you're coming from. When I was in a similar place, someone told me to read these books. I did, and it has made all the difference in the world! So, I hope this is helpful, and that you aren't offended.
I have a loooong journal in the journal section, if you're interested. I haven't been doing CAD (well, until yesterday), but Protein Power. I know that when I started, reading others' journals really helped me. Mine is a mess - some menus, some recipes, lots of visits from my crazy lowcarb friends, etc. However, if you have some spare time and want to check it out, feel free to stop by. I always love the company!
Take care of YOU, and do what is best for you!
-Catinhat