Mon, Feb-19-07, 14:08
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Senior Member
Posts: 162
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Plan: Primal Blueprint
Stats: 405/350/220
BF:
Progress: 30%
Location: Atlanta
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Quote:
Originally Posted by Truesay
Elpasopop: What works, works, Grab it with both hands--if other people think its controversial...oh well, who cares. You are the one that has to get into jeans...not them.
You said, you went "back" to OA...what was it about THIS time, that didnt work, last time?
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Hi Tru,
What worked this time is that I am finally ready to surrender to the program of OA and to a higher power, with no reservations. When I tried it before (twice), I always had a ready excuse for why I was different, or why I was exempt from being powerless, or ow I could control my eating.
I have realized that I am truly powerless over my addiction of overeating. I have spent tens of thousands of dollars, tried willpower, all diets known to man, even surgery. Still, I overate. I had to realize that no matter what I tried, my human resources were not enough. Looking back, it was really a "duh" moment. Of course I am powerless, look at how hard I tried but had no success in losing weight!
So...I was in enough pain with this addiction that I finally could brush asaide my ego long enough to surrender to the program and to reach out to a higher power of MY understanding.
The compulsion to binge was lifted practically overnight. Of course the "no hunger" feature of Atkins also played role, but for me, overeating has never been about me being hungry. It has been about me being lonely, afraid, without direction. Hunger had very little to do with it.
Thanks for asking!
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