anyone still around in this forum?

Hi, i am still here. I just messed up again. doing better than before though. I didn't eat anything that i was;t supposed to but i ate a lot of calories, don't even know how much. I wish could see myself after the binge, before the binge actually happens

yeah, I wish I could as well - sometimes I can - I just can't control it - I eat everything full well knowing what I'm going to feel like - I guess I didn't know that it would get back to this degree. 40 lbs is just mind-boggling to me

i know exactly how all of you feel, my doc prescribed me ambilify last week or so i bingeged once out of the fact i had just started and i think i got all anxious but i havent thought about it or anything and i might actually never binge again right now i was always in denial of meds but i swear sometimes its neccessary, please get help if you feel its outta control, i have bulimia so im also working with a psycologist but i battled this and tried everything holistic etc, good luck

Hi - this thread caught my eye and I had to pop in.

I used to be a binge eater too. It got worse and worse as time went by. It got to the point that after dinner, I would have to chew gum all night long to stop myself from eating more. Sometimes I would be craving foods so bad I had to leave the house. More often, I'd find myself standing in the middle of the kitchen with my mouth crammed full. Then the guilt, of course...that's the worst part.

I used to study other people eating, how they'd put their fork down between bites or leave food on their plate, and wonder why I couldn't do that. I'd take the phone off the hook on Friday nights, lock the doors, and eat a family-sized bag of chips. Maybe some cake after. I ate more than anyone I knew, and more often. I thought about food all the time. I was terrified of ever going hungry.

And then I found out I am intolerant of gluten and dairy. Funny - these were the exact foods I would crave and binge on usually. Cheese, crackers, bread, rolls, pasta, pudding, dip, you name it. I would eat pasta and garlic bread until I felt like I was going to die, then be looking around for some cake or a cookie. When I eliminated grains and dairy, the cravings and binge behaviours just...stopped.

I still have emotional issues with it, but they have been so much easier to deal with now that the physical issues behind it are gone. I really believe that, like other addictions, there's much more at work than just emotional stuff. I would urge anyone struggling with bingeing...and it's such a horrible thing to struggle with, because who do you talk to? No-one understands it...to at least research about food allergies and intolerances. "Leaky gut" leads to so many physical and emotional problems, and it can be healed quite easily via diet.

I'd be happy to answer any questions, if anyone has any. I've been recovering since May and it still amazes me at how different my life is now. I don't mean to sound like an evangelist or something, but it's like I have my life back...and I didn't even know it was gone.

I messed up again. I feel like a failure. tomorrow is a new day, don't think about anything but moving forward. I still feel horrible

My rule - my goal?

If you are going to overeat, eat the right low carb foods.

Better to get more calories of clean foods than waste the binge on crap!

Hi everyone,

Ive been reading through this thread and would love to join. I desperately need some help.

I've been low carbing now for about 5 years and really enjoy this WOE. However, for the past few months I've been over-eating BIG TIME!! I just cannot control my portion size. Even though it is all "allowable" foods, I have to have HUGE plates of it and then ....here is the problem, I binge on nuts. If it were up to me, then I would not have them in the house, but my BF eats them. I eat mainly brazil nuts, almonds and walnuts. I know these are low carb, but I sometimes eat 200grams over the space of a few hours. I just keep constantly nibbling on them. I tell myself I will "just have a couple", but then something takes over and I cannot control myself. Even when I am walking around the supermarket I will open a packet of nuts and have normally devoured the whole packet by the time I get to the checkout!

I also eat really, really fast and sometimes I feel disgusted at myself. Even when I am not hungry I will eat!! And then, I feel so guilty that I run for an hour and a half to burn off the excess calories.

I have calculated that if I only ate my meals, then I would be fine calorie wise, but with the nuts (which are about 650 calories per 100 grams), my total calorie intake can sometimes add up to 3000 calories - which is WAY more than I need!

You will see that I am not overweight, but I will be if I carry on like this, and also, emotionally it is really messing my head up....it is all I think about. I am so desperate for help, but cannot talk to anyone about it.

Well, I think I have probably gone on for long enough, and I'm sorry for venting, but I don't know where else to turn.

Thanks in anticipation.

xxxxxx

Hi missadkins, all i can say is be careful. I am struggling too. The binging started with allowable foods and eventually i was in full blown binging, which it has almost been a year since it started and i am still struggling all the time. and not to mention I have gained a good 70 pounds in the process. I am having a hard time right as I am typing this. I am disgusted with what i have been putting in my body. i look horrible

Hi I'm a binger too. I lost 65 pounds last year doing Atkin's and then I started slipping around thanksgiving. Once I eat one thing thats not low carb I can't stop eating. I've always had an overeating problem but only binged when dieting. Now my binging is worse than it's ever been in the past and it's been pretty bad. I quit smoking Jan. 7th and used it as an excuse to stay off plan for a month and now I can't get back on! I keep starting and failing now all month. Last year from Jan. till about August I had such control over what I ate. My appetite was always suppressed due to ketosis and all and then.. my first real binge of the year.. got right back on plan.. then a couple weeks later another one..took a couple of days to recover this time.. then aweek or so later another one.. this time it took a week to recover.. this went on for the rest of the year getting harder and harder to stop each time until now I can't stop overeating until I'm about to bust and then some. Is this addictive behavior or what? I feel like a junkie and high carb foods are the drug. I never want to binge on healthy food. It always seems to be an uncontrolable urge to eat forbidden foods. I'm afraid. I don't know how much weight I've gained, I'm too afraid to get on the scale. But my lowest last year was 180 and i'm scared of going back to 245 or 270 again. I can't live like that anymore! I could barely move back then!?? Thanks for listening to my vent. I am crying out I guess. ALL my excitement and hopes I had last year have kinda been dashed right now.

Wow is that crickets i hear? Or is this place like deserted? Not enough people to offer much support for each other I suppose. Oh well, luv ya anyway. bubye.

For me, it really doesn't matter how I'm eating - I'm always thinking about food. I've been doing well this week - no problems. I keep thinking about valentine's day - its the day I have chosen to actually go off plan for that ONE DAY - I have a full day that I won't be at home or at work so I don't have the ability to necessarily eat well - I'm going to try though. My binging started when I was 12 - long story short - I was abused by my mother and basically starved - when I was finally able to get out of that situation and moved in with my father, there was always food so I always ate it - I guess for fear that it wouldn't be there the next day. Of course, it always was - and I always ate as much as I could. It was survival mode for me and now I can't seem to get out of it. I did really well for a long time. my highest weight that I know of was 264 - I know it was higher at one point - closer to 300, and my lowest less than a year ago was 190. I'm up to the 220's now and HATING myself for it. I use every excuse possible to binge on fast food, cheetos, corn chips, etc. BUT. I have been going good all week. I'm really trying. I'm seeing the doctor on Wednesday to get some help. I'm going to talk to him and to my new GYN about the issue. I was told that it very possibly could be hormonal - I'm hoping to get some help for that. I've also checked in to therapy with an eating disorder specialist - my insurance actually covers it! I just know that I don't want to do it, but for some reason I do. But right now, I'm feeling good about my eating habits for the past few days - and that's all I can do is take it one day at a time. This will be the first time I've even uttered the words "binge eater" or "eating disorder" to a doctor. I've never told anyone about it till I said something on this board. I did feel a bit of relief doing that, so thank you all for listening and understanding. I just want to get back on track physically as well. I want to get back to my really GREAT and fun workouts that I love! I just don't have the energy to even attempt them right now and I"m overly depresseda bout that. I've even tried to just do it and try to find the motivation during the workout or after, but I just literally don't physically have the energy to lift or even move on the treadmill. But I'm optomistic. I really am.

Rissa, so sorry you had to suffer like that as a child. I believe I started using food in the wrong way too as a tween. I was being molested at night by my dad and didn't know how to deal with it. So I began waiting till all were asleep and then getting up and eating all I could hold to make me feel better.
I have gotten better from time to time but seem to always fall back into it eventually. It is a way of self medicating. I have to go and cook breakfast now for my family but will return later on. Hang in there we'll figure this thing out soon.

It's such a viscious cycle. You binge, get depressed, leads to another binge...on and on. The shame afterwards can make it difficult to feel optimistic about changing the behaviour.

Rissa, good for you being so proactive. I'd urge everyone to get checked out physically and to have food allergy testing done, at least. Trigger foods, or groups of trigger foods (like nuts for you, Miss Atkins) could be foods you're allergic to, or that your body is reacting to due to leaky gut, etc. Nuts are an extremely common allergen/irritant.

MissAtkins - you say you've been doing this for the past few months. Can you think of anything that happened to precede it? A stressor in your life, a new medication/supplement, adding a new food/foods to your usual diet or changing your usual WOE (ie: lowering calories or fat, or increasing carbs)...that sort of thing?

Anyone ever felt that the bingeing was a form of self-punishment?

TOday i haven't binged, but i haven't been following my plan either, just eating low carb today. TOmorrow i am starting back on my work out and carb cycle plan. I know i can do this, i just have to be strong