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Originally Posted by AZDean
Hi Lisa,
It is true that the sense of control is exhilarating. I do indeed like it a lot knowing how out of control I was for 20+ years. To me, it's not a matter of learning how to beat my body into submission, but simply learning that I don't have to be controlled by it. Believe me, that is a huge relief.
But when I hear so many struggling with stalls and close to giving up hope of ever making it to their chosen goals, I wonder why they are having trouble. Maybe something really is harder for them than I realize. Or maybe they don't desire to be as "extreme" as I have been. Whatever the reason, something is different.
Let's speculate that the difference just happens to be my excessive level of control. If that is the case, and if one really wanted to make it to their goal but had so far failed, wouldn't it be worthwhile for that person to consider whether or not they want to try for a higher level of control?
Maybe they would consider it and decide it's not for them. Fine. Maybe that's what some have already decided. If so, and if control is what is the actual issue, then we should at least be honest and say, "I'll simply lose as much weight as my current level of control allows (or lose it as fast as my current level allows)". Wouldn't that be reasonable?
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I just want to interject this one point here.
Those who elect to stay heavy, to let their weights maintain at an obese level, and to try not to control their impulses for food at all (other than making low carb choices when they strike), that's fine and good and it's your choice to do that. However I really do balk at the intimation some posters are raising that this behavior is some how better or more healthful - and by healthful I mean meantally in particular - than trying to control your body.
What seperates humans from the beasts is our ability to act rationally - which means, to use our
minds to dictate behavior even when our bodies/emotions & instincts want to do other, more primative things.
There is nothing
inherently unhealthy in drawing upon the conscious mind to sometimes override the physical body so as to produce a more gracile, aesthetic result in appearance or behavior. We do this all the time in society.
For example, when you are in the middle of the street and the urge to use the bathroom strikes, do you
control yourself until a suitable place to relieve yourself can be found, or do you just go right there 'cuz yer body told you to? Or another example... if you are in a store surrounded by expensive merchandise, do you listen to the primative animal brain that screams "OOOOH TAKE IT NOW"? Or, does the higher, socially responsible mind predominate and swat down the animal brain with logic and rationality: "I cannot take this merchandise as it belongs to someone else, and stealing is morally wrong and socially irresponsible"?
You know, several posters have implicated that using control over the body's desires for food (Which are, truthfully, bottomless if one eats an unstructured diet without "forbidden foods/times of eating/etc". It is more the exception to be naturally thin rather than the rule in today's fast-food saturated consumer culture...) and deriving self satisfaction from it, are a sign of
poor mental health or of a potential
eating disorder.
You are equating a similar tendency with an extreme form of mental disorder. It's like saying people who enjoy drinking out on the town might become alcoholics. Technically it's true but there is so so so much else going on for the alcoholic that is responsible for the difference between social drinking and alcoholism... so much to the point where the alcohol consumption, itself, is hardly definiative of what it means to be addicted to alcohol.
In truth there is nothing wrong with controlled eating, and it is not automatically true that feeling positive reinforcement for exacting self control over eating means you will develop or have an eating disorder.
In fact, I say it is no less unhealthy to use control and derive satisfaction from feeling like you are behaving in a way that you feel produces a more aesthetic, desirable physical result, than it is to choose to not value conformity/apperances so highly and instead to comfort yourself by indulging in food.
The fact is
it is normal and
common among people to not eat everything you see, when you want it, every time you want it. I didn't know this until I became thin myself. I thought all thin people just ate everything they wanted, like I did. It wasn't until speaking about it did I learn that almost everyone denies themselves food, junk food, bad food, high calorie food to some degree. It's common for thin people to deny themselves food at least on some level... not to the point of going hungry (like those of us who are RECTIFYING over eating are doing TEMPORARILY), but yes, thin people WILL not eat say, another snickers bar after already eating one, just because they taste good and they got a "craving". Not if they want to stay thin people anyway. Living in american society with it's consumer culture - taste-engineered foods, prepackaged convenient foods, cheap foods, huge quantities of foods EVERYWHERE - it (denial of food impulse) is practically essential if one is to stay in shape and maintain an aesthetically pleasing apperance. It's very rare for someone to be truly "naturally thin" in our culture and to stay that way their entire lives.
Anyway. As I was saying to equate using control to override the body's never ending cries for food on some level with
poor health (mentally and/or physically) would be as ridiculous as me equating your choice to eat as much as you want whenever you want so as to stay obese/overweight with
compulsive eating disorder and
certain death from obesity, heart disease, high blood pressure, and other complications of largeness. You are equating a harmless behavior with an extreme form of disorder which is just irrational. You chose to never deny yourself food and stay obese/overweight (whereas most people do and stay thin, OR choose to not and gain weight). I choose to deny myself food and stay very slender. Why is your choice better than mine? Why does my choice mean I'm sick? In reality it's not any more unhealthy physically or mentally than the choice to eat a lot (and yes, it is a choice, you DO have control in deciding what and how much you put in your body).
The irony is that most people outside a forum concentrated with obese people would view eating in a way to stay obese - consciously choosing that - as more indicative of mental disorder than electing to be very thin through behavior. The fact is eating to be obese implies a disregard for/indifference to society and it's concept of beauty/normalcy/conformity... and disregard for these (social standards) are often linked to mental state, physical state, and subsequential behaviors that are biologically unproductive/self & socially destructive. Now I'm not saying obese people are defective, just saying that obesity is heavily stigmitized and it is also viewed as a choice people make. To other people, choosing to be very obese through behavior is at best puzzling and at worst intolerable/unacceptable.
People have a natural aversion to difference and those who have no interest in fitting in. There is a reason for that. Difference implies either overt threat or biological defect, neither of which are good to keep around the social structure or in the gene pool. Aversion to difference and those who express indifference to social status/rank is
natural. This is also the roots behind
other prejudices. It's an unfortunate fact of life, of being a social animal (human).
Now we can pontificate for days whether or not the social standards are right or true, or whether or not people should be "biased against obesity"... but the fact is they are what they are, obesity is NOT acceptable, and there is nothing unhealthy about wanting to better fit in. Especially when you're younger and more concerned with social status/social ascention/ambition is concern with such matters not exceptional at all.
Maybe when you're older and more weathered you can reach a place where you can tell the world to go to hell and unbutton your top pants button and curl up with a slice of low carb cheesecake on the couch..... maybe it is sometimes the product of growing into yourself and greater self confidence that allows us to reach a point where we can accept ourselves irregardless of what people think about us.
It's just a different ballgame when you're young and starting out in the world. To tell the world to "go to hell" and just eat what you wish and become indifferent to your size 20 pants, that's just not normal when you're my age. It's NORMAL to want to be aesthetic, gracile, to fit in, to be popular and beautiful and well received. Few of us ever will achieve "perfection" but almost all of us at one point were or are trying to make ourselves the best we can be.
...and my friends, if you DO value looking as good as you can look, of actually achieving that "goal weight"... it sometimes takes having self control and saying "no body, you cannot eat that slice of cheesecake because we already ate quite a lot already. It's not very high in nutrition either, and we want to stay reasonably fit and healthy and attractive".
Doing this does not mean you will "control yourself into a hospital", nor does it mean what you're doing is shallow, or lower, or more unhealthy than deciding to eat when you've come home from a hard day of work, or to eat because that cheesecake looks damn good and your body is biologically designed to respond with immediate feelings of pleasure to the sensation of it in your mouth and on your tongue. It's just different. I am no more an anorexic destined for hospitalization because I choose to prioritize control/results over indulging in my body's food impulses on a whim, than you are an out of control binge/compulsive eater on their way to becoming an imobile shut in covered in bedsores for choosing to indulge in food more frequently than you deny it. It's irrational to equate harmless behavior that you may have a hard time understanding fully with an extreme mental disorder. We're different people at different places in our lives. I'm discovering self power, that I can change my fate, savoring it after years of feeling out of control.
We're different. Different priorities, different feelings of satisfaction.