Yesterday morning, I was coming off a fast.

I'd been miserable on it -- kept feeling hungry -- but wanted to fast before getting some lab-work done.

Yesterday morning, I'd lost all of 0.2 lbs. *sigh*

Went, got my blood work. Came home to my breakfast-coffee. Picked up my eldest from school, did some running around, and took them to Whataburger for a late lunch. Had a mushroom-cheeseburger. (double patties, cheese, and freshly grilled mushrooms.) I was a little concerned, because I tasted some sugar in the "creamy au jus" that came with it, but the mushrooms were SO good (and I was feeling like I hadn't eaten in a month).

Had dinner. (Hubby made it.... there was beef, some sort of creamy "dressing" on it, and avocado. No idea what to call it, but it was yummy.) Just as I went to bed, was STARVING, so had a few slices of salami.

Woke up this morning, weighed in, expecting to have not really budged. (You just saw what I ate -- and way too much of it was processed for me to feel good about it.)

Down 2.0 lbs.



I'm SURE some of that was left-over from the fast. (Didn't mention my mid-morning bathroom trips, yesterday. )

I'm officially 10.9 lbs from not being obese. 11 lbs? Yeah, I can do that. No big deal at all.

I'm just curious, now, how close I can get to that goal before my next doctor's visit. (She should be setting up an appt with me as soon as my labwork comes in.) Don't think I can drop 10 lbs in the next 2 weeks, but I'm sure I can make a dent. Especially since my appetite is being so cyclic right now. (Lots of short-term stress going on... Not necessarily taking care of myself the way I should, which is why some days I'm being "binge-y" -- which I currently define as eating for something other than true hunger.

(I've hit the stage of things where I can go a while without true hunger. But I've been finding myself in a place lately where I can observe a desire to just curl up and eat. When it gets truly distracting, I'll eat something... any of the "snack-able" on-plan things I keep on hand. A scoop of nuts. String cheese. The afore-mentioned salami... A pickle or two... etc. Not sit down and eat a whole bowl of nuts, but... I have this picture in my head of eating a bowl of popcorn, so I have 1/4 C of nuts. By the time I'm done eating them, the destructive urge has passed.This is so different from when I'm in a less stressed-out place, and actually only eating when hungry.)

So focusing really hard on my "tricks". Like swallowing all my vitamins every morning, and drinking "insane" amounts of water. (This is just a baseline practice for me -- basic self-care. If I do those things, it keeps me mindful of a lot of the rest of it.)

So definite progress...

Down roughly 30 lbs in 5 mos. Still have 45-60 more to go (to be in my healthy "range" -- not sure where I'll settle).