Fri, Feb-27-04, 10:04
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Registered Member
Posts: 71
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Plan: My own
Stats: 203/154/135
BF:
Progress: 72%
Location: Washington
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Well, I was diagnosed with diabetes and I couldn't control it and when I had to give myself that first insulin shot I FREAKED OUT I think it took me about 20 minutes to just prick myself. But right before that, I remember several things, I used to be EXTREMLY thin growing up (I danced for 15 years) and when my future MIL came over to my mother's house for the first time, she saw pictures of me up in the hall at my smallest, yet unhealthy weight, I was like 95 pounds but 5'4 (I was anorexic and going to counseling) but she commented on how wonderful I looked, I know that is sick meaning to say that, but she was right to a point, I look muchbetter thinner. She makes several comments about how she will starve herself if she goes above 125 and she is 5'7. I know SHE has ISSUES with weight, but it does get my head spinning as I was once diagnosed with an eating disorder and anyone who has been, isn't or never will be 100% cured from it. The other factor was when my back would ache getting up every morning, and I could sit down on the bed propped up with a pillow and my fat rolled into my boobs, so it was time. I am 5 pounds from pre-pregnant weight and it WILL come off, I am doing great and won't go back. Makes you very sensitive to heavy people, as I have been super thin and super fat.
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