SO many failures - SO bad this time
HI All
First post here. I wont bore you with the past but suffice to say i need to lose 100 pounds. I did atkins 2 years ago (and many times before that) and lost 90, cured my type 2, lowered my bad chol 100 points, lowered my BP from 190/110 to 120.78, resting heart rate from 98 to 70, and was starting to come off meds
then i gave into the ADDICTION that is food for me, sugar, carbs, fried foods and never looked back and again gained it all back
the big problem this time is at 47 i cant do this again and fail, i wont make it back again
has anyone really lost 100 plus and kept it all off for 3, 5, 7 plus years?
i am on a ton of meds, my knees are shot, i need neck surgery and i blew out my lower back and just got thru shots there. i can barely walk with numb feet, out of breath, and i wake up every night and am exhausted all the time, night sweats, low oxygen at night (tested and confirmed)
the problem on atkins was my mind was exhausted since i did induction for a year and should have switched some carbs that were healthy in but didn't.
then i plateaued for 3 months and ended up getting shots and those made me sick as heck
i am a mess
but i have small kids and WANT to get healthy
but i fear a component here very rarely spoken of is depression, and addiction, and how sugar can be as powerful as heroin or cocaine or moreso
i fear it isn't just will power but addiction and depression i have to over come to make this permanent, i have proven i can lose with but i cannot EVER keep it off and be happy with it. our addiction can be filled in any 7 eleven or fast food joint
something has to give and i am scared it may be me in the end
i have done atkins numerous times and always worked, but never kept it off
i feel worse now on EVERY level than ever before and even on a TON of meds 10 or so a day my vitals are bad
i am not sure what i am asking here. but i know i need to do something or it wont matter
the other issue this time is i ate so much meat on atkins i LOATHE the thought of bacon, or steak, or eggs!
sorry for the vent. i am hoping there is some hope
i also have very little time to shop, or cook, or prep and travel alot for work and am always in restaurants etc
my knees and neck and back are so bad i cant walk very well, although i bought a bike and have tried that some
sorry, just looking for anyone who has REALLY kept it off, for years and years and how you did that
thanks
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