Don't know if I should be commenting on this thread..
I have a history of bulimia, so I never considered my weightloss a success, more of as a side effect and gained most of it back.
I was around 187 when I was walking into a supermarket and a young cute couple, my age, were making fun of me. It was terrible, because I was trying to look my best, even at 187, buying cute clothes, wearing make-up, and I had no idea others percieved me as ugly. I mean, I had an idea, but seeing complete strangers make fun of me made me want to die.
So I started dieting, and eating less, and less, and working out. I looked great below 140 pounds. Then my bulimic monster reared it's ugly head, and the old self-conscience ME became engrossed in diet and food binges. Now I'm trying to regain control of my life, to accept that I will never be a petite 120, but it didn't mean that I looked bad at about 135-140, I looked great, but I never saw myself like that. Others did, but I still thought I had to lose more. In the end, I put 20 plus pounds on fighting bulimic episodes. For me, low-carbing is about controlling my bulimia, I'm trying not to focus on weightloss, though I have been losing that ugly 20 pounds that came, consequentially from bingeing despite throwing up. No offense to anyone who was at my high weight, I just didn't look good at it, being only 5 '5, and a young girl who was missing out on the activities that make up a teenager's life. Starving may have temporarily led to weightloss, but it didn't make me healthier for it. And I was in no position to be giving anyone tips on healthy eating. But I look forward to a success story where I can tell people I'm recovered and in good health!
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