Sun, Mar-13-11, 11:34
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Posts: 52
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Plan: CALP
Stats: 241/225/160
BF:
Progress: 20%
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Why I have been gone for a month..
As some of you know I vowed to recommit to CALP over a month ago.
Well, some people I know starting doing raw/vegan and juicing diet. They have done wonderfully. I read up on it, and read all the health benefits, how wonderful it is to eat like that, etc...
So I went out and bought a juicer, and have been spending twice as much money per week on all kinds of fruits, vegies, etc..
I did okay for a couple of weeks. Got down to 221. But then my cat was killed by a pitbull on my front porch on 2/23 and I have been spirialing out of control ever since. I am up to 230 now. Each and every day, I vowed to start the raw/vegan diet. However, I have cravings each and every day which only get worse. I have been depressed, anxious, eating out of control, and going to bed early every night.
I am really angry at myself and frustrated that I cannot be a "raw/vegan" and live this glorious life that so many seem to have that eat like this...(not that CALP is not glorious, but you know what i mean?
This morning I woke up and felt like if I did not get some protien in me, i'd litearlly DIE! So I ate two fried eggs, and some Trader Joes, chicken sausages, and finally feel satiated...
I just need to vent, and I am going to start CALP again..
Have any of you felt depressed or frustrated that your body feels like it's failed you????
~Carolyn on the California Coast~
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