Hi, all. Haven't posted here in a long, long time, but I hope that being on this site will be the encouragement and support I'd like to have!

I used to post on this site last year and had great success with low carb - then the holidays hit, and the next 6 months were a battle. Actually, they were a continuation of a 14 year battle with bulimia, and lc-ing seemed to make it worse. If I ate a few too many blueberries, I'd say to myself, "Oh well, you blew it!" Then I'd eat an entire cake or something, vomit, and run 13 miles. Sounds sick, I know, and that's 'cuz it is. Or was, I should say.

I finally went to my MD and began treatment with an eating disorders specialist. I haven't been low-carbing, just eating reasonable amounts of whatever food I want. Amazing to find out that I don't like 6 cookies! One, or even a half, is all I really want. Another news flash? I don't like ice cream very much!!!!! It was just really sugary and easy to throw up. Go figure. My "all or nothing" mentality is shriveling up and dying, thank God. I'm really seeing food as just that - food, not comfort, not excitement, not punsihment, not reward - just fuel for my body.

I'm really ready to be a bit more "planned" about my low-carbing again, because it really worked for me and I LOVED the way I felt when I was eating fresh, whole foods and loads of veggies.

Sooooooooooooooo Here goes! Wish me well! One day, one step.

Welcome, 2piece! Good for you for seeking treatment--too many people suffer in slience with EDs, and don't ever get well. You are so right when you say EDs are not about the food--there are so many complex emotional issues involved.

Glad you are back. I did LC a year or so ago, but quit when I didn't lose as much weight as fast as I wanted. Mind you, I had read only DANDR, and didn't find this forum until this time around. I have learned so much here! Turned out my "atkins" diet was really flawed the first time...this time I am determined to do it right.

You are on the right road now!

Cheers,

Lucy

Welcome home.

HOLY COW!!!! I just realized that ED also stands for erectile dysfunction..... THUD! (That's the sound of me falling on the floor while laughing hysterically at myself...)

It's wonderful you've learned there was more to the problem then just diet and had the courage to face it and work on the disorder. There is a section on eating disorders on here, but I have no clue how useful or well used it is. Hang in there and remember your in it for that good feeling, not to let food have power over you again. Maybe even start with Atkins for Life, South Beach or other more liberal plan that sounds like you are already eating now. Everything in moderation.

Well I am glad to know that you do not have erectile dysfunction LOL, and glad that you are doing so well! Welcome back. I agree that this WOE is very helpful in overcoming eating disorders and that mentality. I know it has been very helpful to me also. That all or nothing mentality is the hallmark of us perfectionistic/eating disordered people and I find as I strive to have more moderation in opther areas of my life (work etc) I do better with the food control as well. Having the support of the folks here has been extremely helpful too.

Much continued success to you!!!
Kristen

I ma soo happy to hear your story! Thats just great that you beat back that monster! I agree with the other poster, check out Atkins for Life.

We'll be here for you every step of the way. Welcome back

Debbie