I woke up CALM.
CALM about food.
I know this feeling and love it. It keeps me in the zone and stable and very important 'feeling' for me deep inside.
Like I know I am where I need to be.....just let it happen.
I think the holidays made me 'panic and anxious and crazy' a bit as I had to 'fight alot' to not eat crap. And I didn't but when that holiday time is over....I am kinda still in battle mode ya know. Like all tensed up and it is all OVER FOOD that is around me and more. So on high alert. I can't live on 'high alert' all the time LOL it freaks me out a bit in my food issues for sure.
So my 'high alert' feeling has come down. Family crap food is mostly gone from the house now from the holidays. They are not making it 'all about food' anymore and back to eating their regular type foods they love and THAT I CAN handle
but when it is jacked up foods, smells, all about food at every turn to eat this great holiday thing and that holiday dessert and more....ugh....I go panicky for sure.
So I woke up in CALM now. Oh boy I feel it and love it truly.
I woke up NOT hungry. I guess my mind finally caught up with the low food junk around and the focus of 'holiday eats' everywhere and focus on 'holiday dinners' etc. are over. I can calm down now cause it is truly over!!!! The food is not center stage around here finally again HAHA
omg I am so glad that is all over truly!!!
So my calm means my hunger is more controlled as in I ain't fighting head games here.
Calm means no hunger this morning and back to my 'eating timeline' I do best on and not that frantic high alert, fight the damn day food troubles I had around me.
OK...calm and easy I can deal with LOL
I tell ya I know me. I can fight so long. Be on high alert for only so long. It drags me down to a bad place.
but this into Jan. and no monster holidays and food focus means I can be me on my carnivore plan....easy. simple. no hunger signals can come back and hold me there simply....not fighting it all.
Alright, I like that LOL
So today is a ribeye steak later.....later, whenever, only eat it when I do get truly hungry.....pair it up with some shrimp....oh heck yea.
then I am sure I will hold well and only eat something else later if truly hungry.
I found me again. So important!
just chatting out crap I go thru LOL