Tue, Feb-15-11, 18:11
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Senior Member
Posts: 1,387
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Plan: 160g animal protein/day
Stats: 185/167/165
BF:35
Progress: 90%
Location: Algona, WA, US
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Oddly enough, gaining weight has turned out to be a gift. Since the weight doesn't come off over night, it gives you time to reflect on how the body was disrespected and polluted with unhealthy foods. And, why we consumed those foods in the first place. For me, it was because I felt unworthy and not good enough. I perceived the food being the only "person" to comfort me and make me feel safe and loved. I would go to my room in the middle of the night with 8 single-serving size bags of cheetos and inhale them in ten minutes. Microwavable bean and cheese burritos gave me a comforting feeling and took the place of yoga and aerobics by making me feel sleepy and euphoric. Stouffer's lasagna and granola cereal had the same effect.
That type of eating made me feel secretive and if no one knew, who would it hurt?
In a different respect, there is time to come up with little ways each day to change our attitude about how we'll show respect and loving kindness to our body. We slowly realize that the world is NEVER the way we perceive it, and that food will not help us hide from our problems forever. Sure, there is a curtain of fat to hide behind, but it just closes us off more and more every day from the rest of the world.
There is no greater gift than finally realizing that we are free from food, the opposite sex (or same sex if that's your preference), drugs, alcohol, or whatever the addiction may be.
Love yourself first.
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