Tue, Jan-29-13, 14:16
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Registered Member
Posts: 91
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Plan: LCHF/Ketogenic
Stats: 215/138/135
BF:
Progress: 96%
Location: Bay Area, California, USA
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Addiction and the Real Gateway Drug
Hi, I'm new to this forum but I've been eating LC (with more or less adherence) for three years now. I'm willing to bet most of you can relate to my problem.
As far as I'm concerned, the real "gateway drug" is carbohydrate, and specifically sugar. It was the first substance I ever used to dampen the negative feelings (sadness, anxiety, self-loathing) and to flood my body with good feelings. In fact, I have a hunch that my little fetal pancreas was primed for this before I was even born.
Ever since then I have been using various substances to manipulate my emotions and keep myself feeling "normal." Over the last three years I have been working on removing these substances (and accompanying behaviors) from my life, and it has been both extremely painful and rewarding.
I recently started therapy and that has been helpful, but I've been having a rough two weeks. That's about how long I've been "clean" from all my addictive behaviors (the ones I'm aware of anyway). I think each day is getting a little bit easier, and this forum has helped me immensely. My hope is that by admitting this I'll be able to keep myself accountable and avoid temptation.
Anyone else in the same boat? (Dumb question, I know )
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