Tue, Mar-18-14, 23:28
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Senior Member
Posts: 5,202
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Plan: Keto, IF
Stats: 224/136/124
BF:44%/23%/20%
Progress: 88%
Location: Kenya-teleworking Austria
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Starting to feel old fears
I have a lovely indian punjabi outfit which was given to me, and I've never been able to wear it. My next self assessment will be when I decide that I can actually wear it. One of my challenges in this body which is uncovering itself is my narrow abs, waist and stomach, and very large bosom. I can feel the sensitivity and fear that this sexual body evokes in me -- I had bad experiences as a teen and young woman, and I have always known that this was one of the reasons for my weight gain, protection from men's gaze. Now I'm old -- funny how young this body looks clothed in my beautiful, form fitting punjabi suit. I wonder if I will get the courage to wear it -- and where? My husband understands, we'll wear it together (so to speak) when I feel the time is right. Really forcing myself to share this here....ooh, want to talk about...don't want to talk about it! Vulnerability, when I want to be a rock! Anyone else having to deal with fear of...having people be able to SEE you, and what could happen as a result?
Last edited by Mama Sebo : Wed, Mar-19-14 at 06:43.
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