Tue, Jan-18-05, 06:50
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Twinkle Toes
Posts: 1,136
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Plan: Atkins
Stats: 300/280/150
BF:
Progress: 13%
Location: Atlantic Canada
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After spending more than half my life overweight I can tell you there is a very definite difference in the way I'm treated by people.
I find people are friendlier to me now than when I was at my heaviest, they look me in the eye and don't try to ignore me or worse yet, I don't see that judgemental look in their eyes.
You didn't have to tell me I was fat, I was well aware of the fact, seeing the disgust or disappointment reflected in their eyes always hurt me, which usually led me to turn to food as a way to soothe my hurt pride.
Someone mentionned earlier about feeling uncomfortable with the looks they got when they were young and in shape, but that didn't happen when they were overweight, I can relate to that, being looked at like you're nothing but a piece of meat leaves a really bad feeling too, so what do you do....when you aren't overweight they look at you like they want to eat you alive and when you are overweight they look at you like you're nothing but a big lazy assed dirty piece of s... and don't want to have anything to do with you.
Looking at it from both sides....I would rather put up with the wolf whistles and ogling than having people dislike me because I'm fat.
It isn't because of people's view of me that I finally decided to lose the weight, it was finally realizing that I was slowly but surely commiting suicide by being so morbidly obese. The limitations on my life because of my lack of mobility had become too depressing, if this was the way I had to live the rest of my life, I'd rather not live.
I've got too much stuff I haven't done yet to end things now, I want to be able to do these things in a healthy, happy frame of mind, losing weight makes me feel healthier and way happier than I had been in a long, long time.
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