Fri, Apr-17-09, 00:16
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Senior Member
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Plan: Dr. Eric Westman's/Atkins
Stats: 150/148/132
BF:
Progress: 11%
Location: NC Southern Outer Banks
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(sorry - this is kinda bloggity)
I am not feeling great, but think I have noticed a slight increase in my energy level. The mental part, knowing this is an autoimmune disorder that I will battle forever is most difficult for me at the moment. My menstruation is so heavy today and came 10 days early so I am dealing with that crap also.
I am worried what they will want to do about the lump on my thyroid. My brother got his biopsied twice which has inconclusive results and caused more swelling in his neck. I also am getting angry at my endocrinologist (who is also a friend of ours) because he totally dismisses my extra 13 pounds, telling me it really is a "non-issue." My libido has been greatly diminished for a while now and I am hoping that will return as I wasn't ready to be "retired" so early! The extra pounds haven't helped that at all. I feel disfigured - which is a little extreme - but this weight came on my butt and thighs and I just friggin hate it! As a resident of the outer banks of NC, we practically live in bathing suits and are out on the ocean almost daily and now I hate the thought of even putting one on.
I realize now that I have probably had this going on for two years, and though it was sub-clinical, I instinctively knew something was going on (more than just aging.) One of the first symptoms I had was a change in my menstrual cycle (skipping periods) and now I have very heavy periods that last at least 11 days.
Also, I have increased anxiety but I don't know if it's the medication or if it's just me? Since my TSH was normal, I am hoping that means this was caught "relatively" early. I am thinking of scheduling an appt. with my endo's partner (he is going to Hawaii next month, and this would be a good way to do this without him knowing.) I know this sounds weird but I have heard his partner (who is a woman) is more sensitive to weight issues and is not against Atkin's. My endo is not against low carbing in a general sense, but he isn't exactly pro Atkin's either, so I wanted a different opinion and some support on this. He gets irritated now when I bring up the weight issue too. I KNOW it's about health as much as anything else - I am not dumb - but I am a woman so this is something he does not understand. (LOL - plus - I have noticed the last few women he has dated have been bottom heavy and I am fighting this tooth and nail!)
If I can't get it off, I will consider plastic surgery. I think I would need an inner thigh lift too, which scares the hell out of me for sure, but I cannot just "accept it" as people have suggested.
I am usually not this depressed and I am hoping I can feel more encouraged soon. Sorry for being such a whiney baby!
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