Being 5'2 and 200 pounds! Feeling sick all the time... unhappy about my life... feeling unattractive... and OMG... all of the cellulite.....

Looking at the beautifully toned young women and men I work with all day...

But yeah.. 200 pounds at the start of lat year. At some point last summer I lost weight although I was not trying and really did not even notice it. When I started to change my life on Dec. 7/08 I was shocked when I stepped on the scale and it said 186.

Seeing that gave me encouragement. I mean, suddenly instead of needing to loose 80 pounds, I only needed to loose 66. The number seemed so much more reachable. Where 14 pounds went, I do not know. Maybe I had been loosing a pound here and there all year, but it was so gradual that I did not notice. I did do a 6 day water fast at some point last summer.. and some pounds came off.

Anyway... that is it.. just feeling fat, sick, unattractive, and wanting so many parts of my old life back. And certainly feeling encouraged by knowing that in a few weeks, I could easily be in the 170's, which I have not seen in years!