i can't force myself to fast.. no, that puts too much stress in my life.
it's been a natural occurrence and when I go for 72 hours.. it's never difficult. it's natural. i can't force anything in my life. so when i wake up and not wanting to eat, i just keep going.
it's been nice. it feels good. it's easy for me.

i just pulled out pork belly to cook this morning and when i woke up, i had a desire to walk! put on my shoes and clothes.. just waiting for some morning light. i have two artificial hips and do not want to trip over a tree root.. so, just waiting for some morning light before i hit the street.

everything in my life is natural.
nothing is forced.
the only force i think i have is forcing myself to drive to the beach and work.
and lately, that hasn't happened either.

i have a friend arriving this afternoon to spend 5 days with me.
all she wants to do is hang on the beach all day long... so, i will be at the beach all week. she will force me to drive to the beach, everyday!