Hello there, I to feel that my head is not in the game. I start new almost every day! I keep thinking "today " is the day and then before I know it something derails me , most of the times it is just plain lazy. I Want this so bad yet at times I feel that it is not fair to have to limit what I eat when I see what appears to be "happy Fat people" . I often give my self that excuse that I should just conform and learn to love myself as I am and stop worrying about my weight. Well that is what got me back up 60 pounds and back to feeling ashamed. I need help doing this and these boards in the past helped me get there so I am putting some blind faith into the hopes I find those uplifting members here. Today starts anew,(once again) but I want this day to be my "last" time to start. Looking forward to watching you as you journey again thru the same struggles.. Best of support to you. KK