I've just found this thread, but it is about something that I've put up front and center in my efforts.

I have noticed and my family reports that I am angrier than I used to be. I don't like being angry but suspect I always was and just hid it (and fed the anger).

I have also noticed that food isn't working as a panacea to some of my darker moods now. This is truly a mixed blessing but I believe it is small progress.

Of course I am working to use exercise, insight, limit setting and communication to solve problems so I won't be (1) so mad or (2) so down. In all cases, I am becoming conscious of a previously unconscious response.

Left with the tricky part of developing healthier ways to deal with life's "little ups and downs" (read this major traumas).

Good thread, I'm still reading from the beginning to learn from others.