I have always had anorexic tendancies, and would embrace them for a little while then shuck them off ouf of fear of "becoming one of those". It is amazing how much control we can honestly have over our lives if we try.

Anyway, the closer and closer I get to goal, the more and more I desire to lose more. I just don't know if I will EVER be happy and satisfied. I can go without eating for a while because honestly lately ~ i am just not intrested.

I really don't know why I am putting this out here. Maybe just to see if anyone else has been where I am right now, and what do you do with it?