Believe me I used to be the Queen of Sabatoge.
I understand what you mean I totally agree. I just know with me i finally made up my mind and decided this is what i want, and need to do. So just do it. I am not saying i am perfect, and that i never cheat on my WOE. The carbs creap up on my once in a while. But now it doesnt give me a reason to give up, just cause i cheated a little.
Everyone is different.
Good luck to you adnil53!!