Oh dear. I totally sympathize - I've fought to quit smoking on and off for 30 years. When I started this WOL in 2003, I thought I could change the eating and the smoking at the same time. Wrong. But you know what? I think that's OK. We can only fight so many battles at once. You can't beat yourself up over this. And we're in this for the long haul, right? IMO, and I'm sure some will disagree: Get the weight where you want it to be, get comfortable that you can keep it there, and then tackle the smoking.