I really can't believe that I am about to admit this, but...

I had my son in early November. Well, I already knew I was fat because at my last prenatal check up before my c section I weighed in at 309. When the lady came to get me upon discharge from the hospital they brought a standard wheelchair for me so that I could be pushed down to the traffic circle where my husband was waiting. I get in the wheelchair and the lady starts to push it, and my butt has gotten so wide that the tires were rubbing the sides of my butt and thighs. I needed a " big person " wheel chair. I cried right there in the hospital hallway. So of course when I got home I began looking at the pics of me and my newborn that my husband took of me at the hospital, and there I am....all 309 lbs. of me...fat face n all...I wanted to scream/cry/puke/curse/etc. So here I am...ready to get this weight off, and start my new way of eating.