Annette,
I do the exact same thing to myself- keep myself overweight to keep the men away. If they stay away, they can't break my heart. Unfortunately, if they stay away, it makes it hard to get married and have babies!! I also worry that I won't be able to control myself if I start getting attention from men and that I'll go off the deep end and turn into a hussey! How's that for not having very much faith in oneself? I also don't have very much experience in relationships or dating- one boyfriend for 7 months so far, at 30 years old. Bottom line: I'm afraid of actually finding the right man almost as much as I am of getting hurt and rejected.

It's a self-destructive way of thinking and I have gotten better since starting this WOL. It only took about 10 lbs before heads starting turning. I'm still TERRIFIED that I just might find the guy I'm looking for, but I figure that if I'm a total package and feel great about myself, I'll find someone who will feel great about me too.

Take care!