Thanks for the info on perfectionism. Believe it or not, mine started in my childhood from being told something positive (I think). I was adopted and when I grew up I got told how I was 'special, because I was chosen' alot of the time. I now wonder if I thought that meant I had to be exceptional because I was chosen. Not sure but I know I was the only one that pushed myself all through school etc. All my school reports used to say that I strived for perfection. I just wished the teacher could've told me I'd never find it, learn to lower my standards and ease up on myself LOL.

Leemack, you're right re the reading. It's something I love to do anyway.

I just have to trust in myself to make good decisions and that this is going to work, no matter what the scales say. I'll get there this time!!!!!