Let's see...the culmination of multiple events that occurred in a short period of time---Having to watch my daughter go on rides at the Boardwalk all by herself because I'm too big to fit and don't even want to TRY to fit because of the fear I won't and the humiliation that will cause both myself and my daughter. And she wanted me to ride with her so badly. In a year or two she will rather be with her friends then her mom--and I'm MISSING IT.

Sitting on an old, rusting lawn chair at a HUGE get together and it breaking in pieces. And then just this Saturday...someone who I haven't seen in a little while giving me a hug and then touching my stomach and asking when I'm due???!!!...YIKES.

Then looking into the mirror and realizing that I've checked out. And not wanting that to be true anymore. Realizing I don't want to settle anymore and how exciting it will be to discover the real me again...and to really live life...the life I want and deserve and CAN have.