I thought I knew everything there was to know about loosing weight but apparently dispite loosing 100 pounds, I am clueless!!!

If you've ever taken off a large amount of weight, you proably know how I feel (desprately trying to NEVER GO BACK) I had been 235 pounds five foot 3 for about six or seven years before I took off the weight and my obesity was hell for me. It hurt my health and my social life and my performances(i am a musician) I was always tired, always sick. In short, I looked like Sh... I felt like sh.... and people treated me like shhhhhhhhh...... I remember all those painful years and I never want to go back. I feel that if I gain the weight back, I may even die. My father was extreemly overweight and died of heart falure at the age of 32 years old. I am 27.

Now, it's a whole new world! Well, I reached my goal about three or four months ago and I started slacking on low carbing. Soon, I started eating whatever I wanted. The scale started to slowly go up. In a couple months time, I went from 135 to 140. When the scale hit 140, I decided to go back to low carbing. I didn't do the induction. Instead, I ate huge grilled chicken salads with tons of blue cheese dressing. After one day of low carbing, I weight myself. 144 pounds!!!!

I was fed up!!!!!! I was sick of low carbs. So, I decided to go to low fat and see if that would be better. After a few days of low fat eating, I got back down to 140.
And I loved it....I didn't mind feeling a little hungry because I got to eat really good food like strawberry banana shakes with skim milk and frozen yogart cones and thai food with glorious rice and whole wheat rolls. I love this kind of food. I could finally go number 2 every day! and my stomach was finally feeling normal. with low carbing, if I went to the bathroom once a week, I would be lucky.

well, after a week of low fat dieting, the scale hasn't moved. I'm still 140. So now, I don't know what to do. Today for lunch, I decided to be diplomatic so I had a low carb/low fat meal. Steamed veggies and grilled chicken. What the heck do I do for dinner!?!!!

For someone who lost so much weight, I am so clueless right now. All I know is that I'll do anything not to go back to my former life. It's so hard, guys.......controling my weight is the hardest thing I've ever done.