In response to kat, i know exactly what you mean. I too have been suffering ED's for te last 10 years and have been there and done that. Fat was always a no-no as was meat (im now vegetarian) and bread and junk food. With restricting i hurt and tortured myself for many years. I have been in recovery for the last year and with therapy and alot of soul searching im trying to now gain a normal healthy weight. I no longer weigh myself and my judge on my weight is how i feel and how i fit into my clothes. I suggest you try eating small portions of low carb high fat foods and try to make it a fullfilling experience rather than a torturous one. Excercise too, that will make you feel a little bit better about the whole process. Just be careful, my biggest flaw, is resticting and skipping meals. Its hard but if you are aware of yourself you can stop it. If you need any help just post in my journal and ill try to respond.