Fri, Mar-18-16, 20:47
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Senior Member
Posts: 210
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Plan: LCHF and OMAD
Stats: 298.4/187.6/145
BF:
Progress: 72%
Location: Alberta, Canada
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Quote:
Originally Posted by bluesinger
When I was young, my parents told me that I was fat and that being fat was bad. I believed them, but, being a child, I believed that they meant I was bad because I was fat. My parents brainwashed me and I believed them because they were my parents.
Looking at pictures of the girl I was, I can see that I was NOT fat. But my own belief, imposed upon me like a virus by my parents, made me a fat, bad person.
The first time I lost weight down to what they wanted, I expected my world to change. It didn't. I expected them to acknowledge me as a good, thin person. They didn't. I expected them to love me. They didn't. Nothing changed.
The difference between my being happy or not happy had nothing to do with my weight, only my attitude.
During my life, I've been fatter and thinner, happier and sadder, but it has always been about my attitude. The attitude which is most positive for me, that which makes me happiest is an attitude of gratitude.
Today I am so very grateful that I am healthy, that I have enough. I'm not rich, but I have everything I need. Maybe I don't have everything I could WANT, but I have everything I need. I am blissfully happy, and that will only change when I decide to be unhappy. I have the power.
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Amen Glenda.
I have been overweight all of my life and I mean ALL of it. I used to think that if only I could lose all my weight then I would be happy. We never lived close to my gramma just because my father was in the army and we moved around a lot, then came a turning point in my life. One day, I was in my late teens and visiting my gramma with my mom and my gramma asked me why I always looked so grouchy and I said because I am fat. She said, BULLSHIT, you choose how you feel and how you let people make you feel. I said, that is easier said than done. And she said, yes it is, but it will be worth the hard work.
That is when I made the choice to be happy, to accept me for me. Don't get me wrong, I have had moments of doubt, moments of sadness, moments of overwhelming depression, but I would have had those even if I was thin for different reasons because that is life, it isn't perfect. But for the most part, I find being sad and miserable more time consuming and energy-sucking than being happy. So I CHOOSE to be happy and satisfied with my life.
Just like taking courses updating my skill set for work (learning new computer programs), for fun (cooking classes), taking parenting classes to learn how to deal with my foster children and their many issues, choosing to lose the weight is just another step in my life.
Will it make me even happier? Who knows, only time will tell. But for now, I refuse to WAIT to be happy. I CHOOSE to be happy and content with my life now and I am 110 pounds overweight!
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