I am a binge eater too. I didn't realize it, but when I was a kid, my brother and I would sneak into the goodies and eat them all. We wern't alloud any, this was our way of getting some. It must have stuck. its all emotional, it doesn't make it any easier. When I met my husband, I had just lost 80 lbs. I started working in a facory with him, and we worked long hours. I was tired and hungry after work, that I would buy alot of junk food and stuff myself all the way home, then purge. He had no idea. He thought I had a good appetite when we would eat fast food after work.
Now he nows the basics. Don't think he wants to know the rest! I have found a pattern now. I binge on Sunday afternoon and evenings. Why? Well I think its because I know I'm going to be lonely all week. You see, he works nights, I stay home with the 3 kids. I love it when he is home on the weekends. Sundays, when he goes to sleep at noon, its the mark of the new long, lonely week. I binge almost every Sunday.
We discussed this yesterday morning. He didn't say much, thats his way. He took off several days over the summer to work on the house, and help me ged through the first 2 weeks on Akins. The crying, cravings, hormones, fears, ashamed. You name it, I went through it and he was there with me. I suspect, this Sun, we are going to have a game plan. I don't want to binge, we will get me through this. Even if we have to take the keys and get rid of all carbs in the house for the day.
Everyone here has a darn good reason for being here. I have never had so much support with my problems as I have found here. For once I have found that I'm not going through this alone.
Thank you everyone!!
Jacki