Sun, Feb-12-06, 19:01
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Butter Tastes Better
Posts: 5,201
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Plan: Atkins OWL / IF-23/1 /BFL
Stats: 100/100/100
BF:
Progress: 34%
Location: SF Bay Area
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Quote:
Originally Posted by bakerchic
Wow, I was wrong, it can be worse. I'm sorry Myjourney for everything your dad is, that is the most asshole thing I've ever heard in my life about a dad doing something cruel to his daughter, short of sexual abuse. Your father deffinitely has some problems, no wonder you stay away from your family.
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Honestly, it doesnt really bother me anymore. I came to terms with who my father is years ago and I have forgiven him. I refuse to let pain he caused me take up any space in my life. There is simply no room in my life for it and I will not give him that power. I have forgiven him for what he has done to me, I do not wish him any ill will but at the same time, as an adult, I can make the decision not to have him be a part of my life. The same way I can decide who I want as a friend and who I do not. I do not believe that just because he is my biological father he has some right to be a part of my life. He was rarely a part of my life while growing up and when he was around he made my life a living hell. The only people my heart breaks for is for my brother and sister(s). They still sometimes try and maintain some type of relationship with him and just end up heartbroken. When I hear of the stuff he does to my brother I usually just burst into tears, but there is nothing I can do. My brother is 22 years old and lost. I do blame a lot of that on my father. I wont go into it now, this isnt the time or the place, but it really just rips my heart out of my chest when I hear what he still does to them.
For now, I am very happy with my life. I live in a beautiful house, I have a wonderful boyfriend, 2 gorgeous cats, a successful career and I am getting healthier with each passing day. From what my mother tells me, he just got divorced again, he is all alone, everyone knows him for who he is and his tricks that he likes to pull so he is vacationing in Europe looking for a new business opportunity (read: more people to sc*ew over).
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