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Originally Posted by nawchem
I'm glad you posted this. Reflux hurts! I was just contemplating buying some Atkins meals for a change but they all have wheat. So you saved me.
I still have carb thoughts. Simple words set me off. Some days I go up to 40 carbs on my allowed foods and it keeps me from a real cheat.
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Thanks for the head’s up on the Atkins meals. I’m in Canada... we don’t have many things low carb unless you really look and not a lot in the way of sugar free compared to U.S. as government here has banned low carb in advertising deeming it “unhealthy”. I was going to state side to pick up sugar free and those Atkins meals but maybe I’ll cross them off my list now.
Hang in there. How long have you been low carbing for? I did Atkins for 19 months no sugar or cheats and certain triggers will fade away but for myself, I also suffer from adrenal fatigue and knowing that sugar is a stimulant and I love it so much that I know I’m addicted to it, I have put it in my head that my health needs to comes first. I was so scared of becoming diabetic because it runs rampant in my family.
Once I got the great feeling of energy back, I made that pact in my mind that this is how I want to live. I’ve had to have long conversations with myself about this. I felt disgusted with myself that one night i broke down in my car and prayed to God for help. I was just tired of eating through my emotions.
What set me over the edge last Christmas after 19 months of doing so well was the loss of my relationship with my sister. I walked away from her after deciding to no longer enable her with her alcoholism because it became so bad. She was looking for a punching bag and I wasn’t going to be that person. That was very emotional for me and sent me over the edge.
I know I put that food in my mouth and it came a point where I could no longer use my estranged relationship with her an an excuse. I look back and her and I had a very codependent relationship. We would always have arguments and she would run away for months on end and I was the one always trying to repair the relationship. Not this time. I decided to walk away and she knows she can’t control me anymore with that hold over me. I’ve changed my codependent ways.
I still get nasty text messages from her at 3 am and wake up to being called names like I’m fat and ugly. I’m far from ugly but when you speak of triggers, her energy drags me down so bad that I wanted to cheat but that is what she would want and I’m going to stay strong because it’s about me now. I realized I won’t let her back into my life and it’s probably driving her crazy because I decided to walk away but I did it for myself.
You have to make it about you and not the triggers . What is it that YOU want? We are in control of our bodies and we should no longer be a slave to whatever situations we find ourselves in. I think it’s about making the conscience decision of knowing what it is you want for yourself and then coming to terms with it. Everyone is different and in time, they will make that decision.