Thu, Jun-21-07, 06:54
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Princess Sara
Posts: 1,826
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Plan: Dukan
Stats: 210/165.6/150
BF:---
Progress: 74%
Location: L.A. (Lower Alabama)
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I've had a couple of really UGH days. It has been a combination of cabin fever, feeling physically ready to get back in the swing of things, PMS, and increased insulin requirements which threw me out of ketosis (even though I am eating under 20 grams of carbs daily). I've found myself thinking of food more---and here is the horror---wanting a cigarette. Uh uh! I'm NOT going there! Time to listen to my body. SO...I made an executive decision this morning. At 6:00 a.m. I got out on the nature trail for a slow stroll. I wrapped my binder tightly and was careful with my steps. It was wonderful. It was just me and the senior citizens moving in slow motion. :wink: How slow? It took me 40 minutes to cover 1.25 miles.
Phew! I feel better!!!
Yesterday I finally was able to get my nails done---after a month! My nail tech has had to keep canceling on me because she has had a psoriasis flair up. She had to take one of her chemo treatments. I felt so badly for her. Anyway, she is doing better, but still having trouble staying with her eating plan. She said that seeing me reminds her of what she is aiming for. We talked about what it means to stick with an eating plan. It isn't easy, and it never gets easy. I don't want to be discouraging, but ya know, I wanted to know what I was facing with my surgery. It helped me deal with the tough parts. Also, I can't remember if it was Connie or Kate that told me this, but it really made sense. When people want to know how I lost the weight, they are really hoping that I will tell them the secret to magic. As we say in AA, there is no softer, easier way. I told her that I had finally reached a place where the the trade off of restricted eating in order to be thin is worth it.
And, it is. I am finally in touch with my deep desire to be thin. I honor that desire. When other thoughts crop up....like the food and cigarette urges over the last couple of days...I can honestly review what these mean and CHOOSE not to overeat or smoke. I KNOW that honoring my desire to be thin will make me feel better. And then I move on to life. This week that means I can settle down to read, write, call a friend, watch a movie, or play with my animals.
I am reading a book called, "Healthy Selfishness" by the Hellers of CAD/CALP fame. The book is NOT about their diet plan. It is about learning to take care of yourself while still being a "good" person. Pretty good read so far.
Later,
Sara<><
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