Mon, Mar-24-03, 04:30
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Stats: 140/133/125
BF:
Progress: 47%
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I hear ya Spang - I recently quit the gym, which is an odd move considering I'm trying to lose weight. I just found that I was getting into a 'forcing myself to go and then wallowing in guilt if I didn't' kind of cycle.
After struggling a lot for the past year and trying numerous low carb plans and going up and down and up and down in weight and feeling deprived and miserable I had this kind of epiphany that I would not play this game with myself anymore. It was funny, I had a big family event at Christmas I swore to myself I was going to weigh 120, so the preceding months were like torture trying to reach that number. I made it to 123 and thought I looked awful, and then spent the next 2 months eating and drinking everything in sight and went up to 140. A week ago I received some pictures from Christmas and my first thought was, oh my god, I actually wasn't fat. I looked good.
So now I'm eating foods from all the food groups, I'm enjoying my meals, I walk 1 - 2 hours a day and do ashtanga yoga 3x a week. I'm enjoying hikes on the weekends and cycling with my boyfriend. I'm trying to eat healthy and think healthy, if you know what I mean.
Even though as Koko says our metabolisms work against us as we age, and I certainly don't want to be shapeless at 40, I want to learn to love my body the way it is when it's at a good weight instead of struggling to be something I'm not.
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