Fri, Dec-30-05, 10:08
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Senior Member
Posts: 1,738
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Plan: Atkins
Stats: 245/241/170
BF:40%/31%/29%
Progress: 5%
Location: Michigan
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Finding happiness
Hi all. I have been so depressed lately. I shouldn't be, but I am. It took some time for me to figure out why. I even went to the doctor to talk about it since it is just not like me to ever feel depressed for this long over nothing. He ran every blood test that you could ever think of, all of them came back wonderful. I told him that I was concerned because I have gained weight over the last year, and needed to stop. After all of the blood work, (he thought that I might be menaposal, but I am not) he said that I am blessed with perfect health, except for one thing. I need to loose those last 20 pounds. He said that 20 pounds would be good for my body frame, but if I wanted to be the perfect health specimen, I needed to loose 35. Well, I am shooting for the 20 first, then we will see where it goes from there. I would love to be perfect, but it is not necessary. Anyway, to make a long story short, I figured out that the reason that I was so depressed was I kept comparing all of the material things I had to everyone around me. They had a better looking house, a newer car, a better yard, a better lifestyle, more money, more free time, better hair, etc.... Then, one day, (the 23rd of Dec.) I started thinking...what the heck am I doing??? I started looking at the things I DO have. I have a great life. I have to start being happy with what I do have. My family has been through a lot, and I mean a lot of emotional crap in the past. We have pulled through finiacial hardships, emotional problems, health problems, and we are stronger for it. I have absolutely no reason to not be happy. I am looking forward to spring so I can plant flowers outside, paint our fence, put shutters on the house. Clean up the lawn more, we can do so much with our new home to make it ours, that I am now excited about it instead of looking at how much work it is going to be. I am really happy. Those 20 pounds will be a snap. I have to remember to "Eat to Live, not Live to Eat". Thanks for letting me vent. I needed it!! 2006, here I come!!
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