Vassy -
Oh don't I know how you feel!!!
I don't have too many words of wisdom for ya, other than we all have to find our own way and sometimes, similar to an alcoholic, we have to hit bottom before it clicks.
I did find the first 3-4 days to be the absolute worst!!! If I was going to quit, it would have been during those first few days... but... after I got all that sugar out of my body, I REALLY stopped craving it. It took a lot of planning though... I got a low-glycemic reference guide for fruits and veggies and took it to the store with me and stocked up on a TON of legal stuff... I bought about 5 bags of pork rinds for snacking... I gave a lot of food in my cupboards to my kids to take home, I kept nothing that had rice or pasta in it... got rid of my huge popcorn stash and made sure that the only thing in my house was legal stuff... but LOTS of it so I could still feel satisfied. It's rough, I admit. I don't know if I could have done this while my kids were still living at home.
The best suggestion I can give is to set up some sort of support system... family, friends, complete strangers!!! haha
I find that the more I discuss what I'm doing and why I'm doing it and what food does for and to my body... that I get better and better at controlling what I eat.
and exercise... I HATED TO EXERCISE... I made a promise to myself to give it 30 days. Exercise and eat right for 30 days and see what happens... after 10 days ONLY 10 days... I swear... I saw a muscle moving under the flab in my arm and I was HOOKED!!! It's been 45 days and counting for me... I've slipped, I've eaten things I shouldn't, I've blown off exercising... but I haven't given up and that's the most important thing... I know you can do it too.. if I can... ANYONE can. I am one of the least disciplined people I know of!!!
The other day, in the shower, I reached back to wash my back and I felt bumps... it actually made me say, outloud, "what the heck?", and then I realized it's my back ribs... I could feel the bumps of my ribs (still surrounded by a substantial amount of fat) but... I hadn't felt them in YEARS!!!
You can do this... trust me... plan ahead, write down everything you need to do, what you want to accomplish each week and check it off as you reach the goal... if you have even ONE check mark on the "good" side at the end of the week... you will have accomplished more than if you hadn't tried at all.
By the way... I did this very gradually. The first thing I did was give up pop completely a year ago... no regular, no diet... then I gave up all candy... and so on... so, when I finally decided to try the Atkin's play, I was already on my way to being free from those addictions... pasta and rice were the only two things I really had to work on. And... I never did the induction of 2 weeks, no carbs allowed... my doctor wouldn't let me... I went right into the week 2 of low carb and I'm still doing that... I'm down 20+ pounds and have lost tons of inches!!!
Please keep trying... what the heck... the rest of your life is gonna get here whether you try or not right??? might as well.
Please let me know if I can help at all... Trust me, this board has been a great help for me.
Have a great day!!!
Linny