July 5. This is my 5th week since surgery, and I am ready to get back into my walking program. I can stand up straight---a little pulling in my stomach if I stand really tall. I still have numbness from belly button and below---also still have some swelling in lower belly, but not much. My belly button is FINALLY looking better. It has been icky, scabby. At one point it had kind of a bump of skin at the top. I wasn't wild about that at all. I thought, well if it doesn't get better I'll just get it pierced and put a jewel on it, but it is looking better now. I read on some TT sites about women who put Chinese checker marbles (they are smaller than regular marbles) in they BB's for a couple of hours a day to shape it. I don't think I will need to do that, but good to know....maybe even a little fun.
I wrote about this over in my Have You Noticed... thread, but will carry the story on here....let me do a little cut and pasting from Tuesday:
Let me explain. I had a gyno appointment in a somewhat nearby town---every city is 90 miles away from us. I had terrific news. My gynecologist (female) agrees with me and does NOT think I need a hysterectomy. My primary care physician (male) thinks I should have one. I was so excited about this news that I felt like celebrating with a little shopping. My wonderful man was up for it---especially when I told him that we just might find something to put in the "bottom drawer." Do y'all have one of these? The drawer that holds the REALLY sexy, naughty stuff? After my weight loss, the inventory has been shrinking. Just this past week, we realized that the drawer would have to be emptied out since even the panties didn't fit anymore.
So here is how wonderful and MOTIVATED my man is....he was my shopping assistant. He not only held my purse, he helped me work through the bra and panties bins. After my breast reduction, followed by 75 pound loss, my
Girls are small now. I like to wear the Very Sexy style padded push-up bras in size 36 D--I have loose skin under my arms and across my back. In this particular bra the larger cup goes under my arm and holds that loose skin. BUT...lately my body is shifting again and the D cup is too big. Keep in mind that this bra is very padded and pushes my girls into a pretty cleavage.
To find the super sexy stuff, I had to try stuff on. After my man and I dug through all of it I ended up with one bra in 36B (yes, I bubble over in this demi cup....but that is kind of the point! The other two were 36 C. The moral...try the things on! AND think about the way you are going to wear this bra.
Now, the panties were funny. I do NOT like tight thongs!! I'm sure I do not need to explain that. I wanted medium Brazilian cut panties and thongs. I love, love, love being able to wear these now that I have had my belt lipectomy. Prior to the surgery, you would never have been able to see the dang things ....they would have disappeared under my skin! My man again helped me go through the bins. At one point I wandered off to look at the lip glosses on sale. He reported that he thinks he made some women uncomfortable standing there with a purse on his shoulder carefully sorting through the panties. Isn't he amazing? Needless to say he volunteered to pay for these items.
Back to Thursday--(is this tricky?)--
So, I did another show on the stairs. What can I say, the light and angle are flattering and it just feels sexy as all get out to pose,twist, turn,etc. Maybe a little weird but ya know. So I had on this tiny black number...push up demi with matching G-String string. Now, I'm not saying anyone else would have been impressed with the way I look, but the man I love WAS stunned. I saw something in his eyes which I have NEVER seen before. It caught my breath. This man has loved me since I was 15. I mean he even loved me through the fattest, darkest, days of alcoholism and depression. The look on his face (and the fireworks WE'VE had over the last two days), has settled me into even more motivation to continue to improve my health.
I didnt go into recovery from obesity, food addiction, and alcoholism for him. I have done it for me. But, I have considered his love and feelings all the way through. I have had amends to make to him. I pushed him away with food, fat, and alcohol for a LONG time. He stuck with me and had faith in me. He has been my strongest supporter. That moment on the stairs....phew....I am opening up to him. I am removing my barriers. It is an amazing blessing.
Peace,
Sara<><