Marjorie....
I understand completely the feelings of betrayal at finding that not only are normal blood sugar readings
possible for a diabetic, they should be the
standard if we want to avoid long-term complications. For years, I would register A1Cs of 6 and above and my doctor would tell me I was doing okay "for a diabetic". Little did I know then...
As for obsessing about those blood sugars; to some extent it's to be expected. For many of us, blood sugar readings mean the difference between avoiding complications such as kidney failure, blindness, diabetic neuropathy and possible amputations, early death and developing complications. No wonder those of us who have researched what this disease can do to us if it isn't controlled can be a little obsessive.
You're also still in a period of learning curve where it seems like all you think about is what you're learning. Once you get a better handle on controlling your blood sugars and feel more comfortable with knowing what you can eat and what it will likely do to your blood sugars, you will probably find that you don't think about it constantly anymore. I know I don't.
Having said all that, considering where you were a few months ago you should be very pleased and proud of the progress that you have made so far!
Going from readings in the mid 250's all the time to fastings below 100 is a marvelous achievement in such a short time and you should give yourself a well-deserved pat on the back for working so hard. Considering that developing diabetes likely took years, getting it under the level of control you've achieved in a short 2 months is awesome! Give yourself some time and keep working at it and I'd be willing to bet that those fastings will be below 100 most of the time very soon.