Sorry galy palies but it's going to be another day of no personals from me. Still wiped out from yesterday and trying to wrap my head around all that's ahead because of decisions made.
W/out going into laborious and boring details, we had our final meeting w/our financial planner yesterday. We were so hoping we could hold on to our house for at least 5 more years thru a reverse mortgage, but he hates that product and took us really deep, deep into the numbers and it is obvious to both of us that the cost/value thing just does not work out for us, even if it is doable.
So, sell the house we must. Need to have it on the market by late summer. I just cannot begin to tell you guys how much that will entail getting done in 6 months! We have some fixes to make, rooms to be re-painted, new fronts for kitchen cupboards, and most of all, probably the roof...although we may be able to do an easier less costly fix on that, but no knowing till spring when snow is gone. Not to mention 28 years of stuff to clean out. Yeah, this house has A LOT of storage, and we have used it all too well.
I've got a huge case of the sadz. It just got so real, leaving here. I KNOW once it's done and we're re-settled we'll be happy to have it behind us at a younger age. But for now, I just look around my beloved home and neighborhood and tear up. Been crying on and off all day, and y'know, it's been a good thing. This home has been so much to us, for so many years, so many memories, and we both still really LOVE it, so, it deserves some grief.
Time for tears is now, as I think once we throw ourselves into getting out of here, at the end of that we will be sailing much smoother, all this behind us, and by the time we've put all the work in, we'll be ready to leave, emotional transition made.
As soon as hubby returns from Panama, our life is going to go into high drive to get out of here. And that might be a good thing, as I/we need mobilization. Feel like I've been living these last few months in somewhat of a daze. Energy begets energy, so here's hoping for that silver lining.
Somehow thru all this, I have stayed on plan. Probably mostly because my stomach is so tight I have very little appetite. The shakes have made sure I'm not starving myself in an easy way that like I said, doesn't use up too much head space for prep and decisions, which I just don't seem to have right now. A bit of dinner does the rest of the trick. Heck of a way to lost weight, but I'll take it on the bright side.
Silver lining: Slipped into a size 12 pair of jeans today. Slight mushroom top, but nothing explosive, and over all, pretty comfortable
Between the tears, a ray of sunshine.
Today just two shakes, bowl of crack slaw for dinner.
I HAVE been reading along with all kinds of thoughts and cares for what you guys have posted, but right now no mojo to reply, but did want y'all to know what's going on for me, and that Imay just be checkin' in for a bit just for the accountability, and hope y'all understand,...slthough y'all know me, that could change tomorrow!
Whatever, Just know I'll get this together, and then be back to my share of interaction, which is really my fave part of this thread!