Mon, Aug-15-11, 09:36
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Every day is day one
Posts: 7,776
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Plan: AtkinsMaintenance/IF
Stats: 185/145/155
BF:
Progress: 133%
Location: Oregon Coast
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I'll play too!
I started logging/recording when I joined this site.
As you can see I was able to get down into the 150s that lasted for awhile.
Then I start to gain--due to a severe back injury, chronic pain, and a crappy attitude that I just didn't care (it's hard to give a shit when you're in chronic pain). Tried numerous times during that time to get back in the saddle but just wasn't able to capture the head space again. Lots of anger and shame during that time. Fast forward to May 2009--a few days before my 49th. Finally sick and tired of feeling the anger and shame. To quote one of my own, the pain of staying the same FINALLY became greater than the pain of change. I did not want to hit my 50th feeling anger, shame, fat, no energy etc. The day after my BD I re-committed to stay on plan until my mom relocated close to me--exactly 60 days. I haven't looked back. It hasn't been easy, but I can say I've more strings of easy days than difficult. The lowest I've been has been 135 for a few months--a bit to low in my opinion--just looked a bit "drawn" and found I was having to work "too hard" and my hunger was starting to rear it's ugly head which for me begins a downward spiral. 140 seems to be my sweet spot--feeling good, able to maintain if I keep to my maintenance plan. I allow my self a 3-4 pound rise but once I hit that 4 pounds, it's back down to induction levels until it's gone. I'm hoping I learned the lessons from mistakes past so that I never re-live the place that I was May 17, 2009.
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