Hello folks!
I have a border crossing to announce: I have been back on LC for a month-plus-change now, when I was at 244 or -5. I crossed over into the 220'es this morning--so very pleased.
I had a little mental chat this morning, visualizing myself posting the news here, and also pictured someone thinking, "I wouldn't have had the nerve to post that here--look, she started this thread, and did the Onederland crossing not once, but TWICE already--what is this, is she LOST?"
To which I can only say: if this was easy, I would have already been slender. I've been fighting this one all my life, and damnit, if I don't make it then I will make myself proud if I go down fighting. It's when I gave up the battle that I started to lose all the ground I had staked.
I can't promise myself or anyone else that it won't happen again, or that it won't happen many times.
I can, however, and am going to make this promise to myself: if I slip up again, and find myself in a regain mode, I come back and read every single post I posted on TDC (and that's a lot of them) just to get some perspective on my situation.
But meanwhile, back at the ranch: I am so very pleased. I realize this isn't a big number, but I was stuck at the low 230's for a couple of weeks, and was ready to move on--and that's where I was stuck on the way up, so have spent too much time there.
Summer is coming, and that's a tough time to be fat. No way will I get to goal over the summer, but I am already 15 pounds down, and may drop another 10 in May--and I'd rather start the summer at 220 than at 245--or 255, or wherever I would have been w/o LC and TDC.
Thanks, each one of you who have supported me as I resume the journey towards health and comfort and life lived to the fullest.
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