Sun, Feb-23-03, 10:58
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Finding the Pieces
Posts: 17,051
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Plan: Mishmash
Stats: 365/297.6/185
BF:
Progress: 37%
Location: Maryland, US
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Mum2four
One of the most important realizations that I came to when I discovered CAD was that is was not me that was to blame!! It was my body chemistry!!! It is a chemical reaction that takes place in my body when I ingest carbs that creates an insulin monster that cannot be controlled through want, desire or will power.
That realization was very freeing mentally and spiritually. It meant I wasn't a bad person! I was a person with a medical condition, a CARBOHYDRATE ADDICT and that condition could be controlled but not cured!!! Not cured!!!! Controlled!!! And the control was CAD!!!!
That being said, there is no excuse for what you're doing to yourself!!! The control is CAD! Sanity=CAD!! Weight Loss=CAD!!! Peace of Mind=CAD!!! No Cravings=CAD!!!
It is up to you to chose!! Life and control or death. Those are your choices. Do you want to be there in the future for your children? Or do you want to follow your mother's path? Those are your choices.
On CAD celebrations don't matter, birthdays don't matter, holidays don't matter. They are just another day in the life of a CADer. They can all be accommodated! The only hard and fast rule you must adhere to at any and all times is this one:
YOU CAN HAVE CARBS ONLY ONCE A DAY FOR 60 MINTUES!!!!
That rule is your touchstone. It cannot be broken!! So you have your childrens' and your birthdays. Celebrate them!!! Celebrate life!!! Control your own!!! I have celebrated many birthdays, special occassions, holidays. No big deal. You save your 60 minutes for the critical time and otherwise you eat CM. As long as there is 90 minutes between CM and RM you're fine. It might look a little funny to others. That your plate is loaded with everything, that you wait until dessert comes out to eat. That at a restaurant you order your appetizer and dinner served together and your dessert when you're only half done with your dinner but so what!! You are in control!!! You are succeeding!!! This is your life!!!
You need to get back on CAD before the next birthday. You also need to know that after a binge you will go through three days of h*ll before you are back under control. Every day until day four those carbs will be calling your name, whispering to you, enticing you. You will be going through withdrawals, cravings, headaches and hunger. That's the price you pay for allowing yourself to get out of control. That's the road back to control you must follow.
But with the fourth day comes peace!! Serenity!!!
I know you can do it. We have all had to do it at times!! None of us is perfect. We have all just made the choice of what's important to us.
What's important to you?
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