Nope, that doesn't sounds silly at all.
When I started back in 1995 I had no idea what it was or what I was getting myself into.
I study American Kenpo, which is a street fighting style. The emphasis is upon defense and preservation of self, through maneuvers intended to protect yourself and to place your opponent into a vulnerable position. As far as what we do movemnet wise, it incorporates a different kicks, punches, elbows, stances, etc. It's a very physically demanding sport, more so than I remember!!!! The depth of training has varied by instructor/school. The first school I attended focused mainly on fighting in various enviroments and situations (It wasn't nessarily safe or a good idea, but at the time it helped me get to where I needed to be) They were so intent on winning. Before tournaments I would be told:
Being disqualified is better than coming in 2nd. (Not a very health attitude.)
My current school (and where I was 4 years ago) acknowleges the fighting, but also teachs the concepts behind the movement, the purpose of what we've learned (contact manipulation, marrige of gravity, etc.) and practical application (it's not like the first school "just beat the living hell out of someone". ) They don't want to create killers or bullies, it's more for self-fullfilment and self preservation.
My past experence included competeing and placing in numberous tournaments (fighting and forms), and teaching.
LOL Probably didn't answer your question or gave too much info.
All the note writing I've been doing is mushing my brain!
Melissa