Hey, my ex had some positive characteristics, too. He was always involved in our son's life (still is), and he genuinely cares about him. I don't know if he's ever really grasped how his opposition with me has so negatively affected our son. He also never was the type to go hang out with the guys. He hated bars (I could never even get him to go hear a good band). He would have never, ever cheated. He's always been very, very committed in that respect.
Like I said, it comes down to whether your marriage is truly important enough to your husband for him to put the effort into the work it will take to repair it.
I completely understand the "being good at things." While I did struggle in school, I did learn late in life that I had ADD. Evidently, females are better at learning coping skills than men and I was doing a fair job of coping until my thyroid went on vacation. I now take 20mg of Ritalin b.i.d. I go through times where I think, "I don't really need it" and quit taking it. Then chaos erupts. It's like the Ritalin allows me to step off of the merry-go-round of what life throws at me and I am able to compartmentalize and focus on things individually. I know the Ritalin has helped me, but I believe someone like your husband would truly only benefit from the medicine along with counselling that would help him learn how to focus, organize, and time management.
As for anti-depressants (even something like Wellbutrin), be careful. Before I was properly diagnosed with my thyroid issues, my GP insisted I was just an overstressed mom (even though I insisted I wasn't) and literally BEGGED me to "just try" Celexa to see if it wouldn't help. I conceded, just to shut him up. I was about 36ish at the time and this was before the current black box warnings, which only specific "teens and young adults." Within 20-30 minutes of me taking the first pill, I fell apart into an anxiety attack (the only I've ever had in my life) and that progressed into feelings of wanting to be dead. Life was too much, too hard, too horrible. The thing was, I knew that just an hour before, I loved my life and my husband and my children with all of my heart and I couldn't understand those feelings, and then I realized it was the drug. I promptly took two benedryl and went to bed and when I awoke, the feelings had abated some, but it took a full 24 hours for them to completely go away. When I told my doctor, he said, "See! I told you you needed it" and swore it couldn't have been the drug, stating that it "doesn't work that fast." Well, a couple years later, one of my best friends lost her husband to suicide, just a few days after being put on anti-depressants. While he was bummed out beforehand, he was not suicidal. He was about 39 or 40 at the time. They had two children, btw.
Anyway, back to my original statement of being good at things, while I struggled in school as a kid, I did great in college, and I'm a musician, and crafty, and resourceful, and can conquer just about any challenge. I don't know why, but that was always a threat to my first husband. Conversely, my current husband is proud of me ... proud of the wife he has. Looking back, it's sad that my first husband couldn't have had that same attitude, but he was too hung up inside his own head to get to ever get to that point.
Hopefully, your husband will be willing to work on the marriage. Maybe if you present your counseling request to him by prefacing it with all of his "great" attributes that you see in him, it may soften the request a bit.
I don't know if you can get him to read it or not, but a wonderful relationship book that is Christian based (but good for anyone regardless of dogma), is by Gary Smalley called: "If He Only Knew: What no woman can resist." There are a couple others by him, "Love is a Decision" and "For Better or For Best" that are also really good. Seriously. Quick reads, holds your attention, and tells you things you already really knew but just didn't really think about.
*hug*
Hang in there and remember: ALLLLLLLL MARRIAGES take work - - but both partners have to work at it, not just one.
(Sorry my responses are so long ... I know it's a drag to read all of my ramblings. One thing I'm NOT good at: short and too the point.)
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