I've made it under 200 pounds. I decided to wait until I had 10 consecutive weigh-ins under 200 pounds before I posted.

When I first started low carbing in January 2008 I was losing weight so fast and it was so easy, I figured onederland was right around the corner. I'd see other people come here and post their success, and I'd congratulate them heartily, thinking my turn was only a few months away. But it never happened. I had one weigh-in of 201 and another of 201.8 in April 2009. That's as close as I got. Then I started heading back up. I'd still congratulate others. I'd use the same words I had before, but I wasn't feeling it. Eventually I was so jealous I stopped saying 'congrats,' Then I was so bitter I stopped reading the success stories altogether. It was never going to happen for me.

So here I am in onederland. I weighed in at 195.2 this morning. It's simultaneously very exciting and somewhat anticlimactic. I think I'd be happy if I never lost another pound, but of course eventually I'll start wanting more. I've already set my new goal at 188.4 which would put me just under a BMI of 30 (and it sounds so tiny to me! )

I wish I had some words for the person out there who is in the position I was in 3 or 4 years ago - feeling hopeless and bitter and like she or he just has to accept being over 200 pounds for life. I can't think what I could say that would have made me feel better in the mindset I had then. Just know there's someone out here who made it after 4 years of trying all kinds of things that didn't work. It's been a long 4 years. I feel your pain.