When I first started LCing, I felt great. My energy was better, and even the pain was gone. I thought maybe I'd found something that "cured" me, that perhaps excess carbs or wheat consumption was responsible for my symptoms in the firts place, and by avoiding those I'd be "normal". I was even contemplating what kind of work I should do if I'm truly too healthy for SSI (which is currently in its 2nd appeal.)

Well, I'm in a major fibro thingie again. I can't even remember the name usually used for these bad episodes. Physically I'm probably no worse off than I was a few months ago, but mentally I'm a mess. I thought this would be *it* and I wouldn't have to go through all this again. And now it's summer and the kids are home and I can barely keep up with everything I'm supposed to be doing. Just taking DS for his swimming lessons every day is completely wiping me out.

Plus I've got other stressors- the ex not paying child support (my only income right now!) in full because he's also out of work, my parents treating me like I'm 12 years old instead of an adult, etc. I just want to curl up into a ball and cry and cry and cry. Or go take a nap for a few hours- which is equally impossible with an awake 5yo in the house.

Flare. That's the word I was thinking of. I'm in another major fibro-flare.