Yes, I know ,it is all just a matter of perspective, but many of us on this forum would LOVE to be your weight!!

As to support, welcome jess188.
You will find support here!
If you are following CAD, try to get hold of the Heller's newer book with updated info. It could make the difference for you.
Try 'Carbohydrate addict's lifespan Program" or Carbohydrate Addict's Healthy Heart".
Both book outline some important changes the Heller's have made to the original CAD diet.
I'm sure you will find the diet enjoyable and simple to do.
I've only been on it about 9 days and I think it is something that I could easily do my whole life.
Another valuable thing to do is to start a journal in the journal section. That way you can record what you eat, frustrations and successes AND other people can reply with encoragement and support!
see ya
kezza