chiqui, I'm not extra smart or anything, but aren't most of the people who have our trouble exactly like us? ALways put other people first and how do we handle OUR problems? We stuff them with food more often than not! Literally and figuratively!! It was purely a good guess and a desire to see you place more importance on your own self worth. Just like I'm trying to do for myself.

Your tours sound exciting...and exhausting! I would hope that you would choose the diet that provides the most energy so that you can continue to work since you've already said that you NEED to. And you know what? I think you described just about every over weight person I know with the word HALTED that you used to describe yourself!! You are NOT alone! Neither am I!! We have now found each other and I'll sure try to help you if you'll try to help me. Deal?